oh hai universe

Sometimes I worry that I spend too much time on introspection. It's completely involuntary, is the thing. Or maybe I just drink too much red wine. I do tend to search for my soul at the bottoms of Malbec bottles. But I find that when I'm not conscious of it, I'm a drifter, that I tend to let things happen to me and react instead of looking for what it is that I want. And crazy sh*t happens to me, so a typical Thursday afternoon finds me covered in saliva and cursing at strangers in the street. My apartment filled almost exclusively with Erol's things is the only thing that really distinguishes me from a homeless person. ... Nice.

I won't dish the deets, but I found myself curled up in my front stoop this afternoon, watching the rain with my favorite friends: Red Wine and My Thoughts. At one point My Thoughts deserted me (Red Wine and My Thoughts have an ongoing fued, usually resulting in the total obliteration of My Thoughts) and a song I haven't heard in years started playing in my head.

I came inside to search for it on YouTube. Behold, the fruits of my labor:



No big deal, but this is probably the most deliciously depressing song ever written -- it seems a little cruel to give people a blackscreen to stare at. It's basically a mirror. You've got this depressing music, you're staring at your own image... you're searching for more Red Wine...